Ramadan Kareem !

Bismillah

In the name of Allah, the most Gracious and the most Merciful,

how furious we are going to celebrate Ramadan in our heart. It is finally here, alhamdulilah ala kulli hal, for this year, still and have the chance to face this wonderful month at the age of 20. alhamdulillah.

so, basically I wanted to share something about this splendid month.
honestly, just talking about Ramadan totally makes me feel so in loaded with everything.
like, every .  single . thing  . that happen in the past past Ramadan keeps on replay in my mind. 

like, how we iftar together with families, with friends. solat tarawikh with IbuAyah, with my best friends, how we can tied a good relationship with others, trying to be good, looking the elders that much more powerful doing tarawikh fully without any grumble and (itu sumpahlah power )and so on. I really love Ramadan. 

and really not to mention, the foods allahu. bazaar really play it own roles. but, for someone like me, fasting really drag all my nafs on food. whenever I went to bazaar, I only bought what that really have to buy. like what Ibu already asked me to buy. so yes, I am really immune with the foods. 

but I really love to bring aliya and aishah to bazaar because I can actually spend them, and have a bonding time with them. and yes, I am a clingy sisterrrrr . 

talking about family really makes me homesick oh Allah I should really stop this

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so, 

few hours just now, we done our very first solat tarawikh with those powerful people subahanallah, everyone just so so happy to be there, as I am too. thinking that Ramadan is coming, is totally makes me feel like, how good it feels like to be home at this very kind of time. but never mind, the time will come too.  soon, inshaaAllah. 

when tarawikh, it do have some times for tazkirah. the person who deliver the tazkirah said, by sharing what his teacher said to him, those people who have even slightest feeling on being happy for Ramadan is coming, they do have chance to enter Jannah, to be ahli syurga. he said, it is okay to be happy for Ramadan coming because of the food, because of the drinks or anything, still counts. Allah knows and He counts. even Abu Jahal, can say that he is the most bad person in Dunya, but still Allah ease his punishment in hell, just because he was one of the person who so so happy when our Prophet Muhammad was born. so yes. Allah do counts everything. no worries. 

go slowly and go far.

(mynd yn araf ac yn mynd ymhell )

pelan-pelan kayuh, nanti sampai jugak

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I got it. 

I finally have that  'what-I-should-do-in-Ramadan' things. it is been there actually, it is just get blurry when it mixed up with all those thing in my head obviously. so, yes, I got it. 

the thing that I wanted to achieve in this Ramadan 2018 :-

1. I wanted to make dishes for iftarr (at home of course )
2. I wanted to do the supplication solah before and after Isyak before moving to tarawikh. 
3. I wanted to do sadaqah as much as I can, even it only cost 1 ringgit. 
4. I wanted to control my nafs and anger when something bad is coming or happens. 
5. I wanted to really be kind and good with my family and friends. 
6. and thinking about losing some weight, I guess ? haha

so, this is what have pop ups in my mind for now. yes, it won't be easy I guess, but yes, I wanted to try this. I really really hope that this will be good by time. 

for me, every month is the month for you to change. every single day to be specific. but then, it is Ramadan Kareem, the most blesses month compare to others. and yes, I really hope, this month really heals my sick sick heart. 

me, being able to be right now, is just because all those advices, loving people who around me, those people far far away but still, willingly to pray for my goodness, and yes, I am totally blesses with those people. alhamdulilah. 

in the past, 

I am not that kind-people-to-be-hang-around person. I can get pissed off just like that. I can make people feel down with my word when I get angry, I can freely uttering nasty words without thinking about the risks of that action. I was that kind of rebel part of kid. 

believe me, my turning point came just in time. and I am thankful for that. alhamdulilah ala kulli hal.

and I know that everyone would have their own turning point by time. 

as hard we try, Allah knows, and surely everything counts. no worries. it is okay. 

time heals, and we heal too. just, have faith on Him. 

may this Ramadan bring light to us, may it heals what broke, may all of us have place in Jannah. 

amin. 

x,

IR