did you already move on ?

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honestly, when I get this question out of the blue, i keep on remembering it, reflect myself and asked more to myself rather I am already moving on or not ? it is maybe because they obviously seeing myself aren't really move on from the spot that I should already move. but then thinking about it, me myself actually really slow on 'moving on'.

it took me almost 4 years to move on totally when I am in the past. and for being this,  the very same thing but different way, I think, i will need that 4 years again to move on from this feeling. haha

'how can you waste your 4 years time for only moving on from someone who you did't even start anything yet ? '

haha. I laughed. 

ironic is, I can like someone for a minute even in a second  but for me to move on from that feeling can took me for 4 years ahead. and how can even our prophet loves us even he never meet us ?

it is not the only 4 years waste for me actually. on my side, 4 years is kind of time for me to reflect my own self on what actually I already did until I have to face this phase again. and it is wallahi it really give me lots of benefit that actually good for myself. 

it is actually a time for me to be better day by day, week by week, month by month and year by year. it is not the only time that I think about moving on, it is all about me who reflect her own self to be better version of myself in the next time . 

it honestly aren't easy. yes, easy to say, but to practice it, wallahi really hard. 

what did you do to move on ?

my process as I say, it is really slow, and sometimes, it move but in my very own pace. i just want be be a better version on myself and be better. instead of having those feeling that only going to hurt me, i should  love Allah that never let me down. by facing the process, I will see what I can't see before this.

which is Allah's blessing.
He loves you so that is how He shows .
and for me, knowing that my own self, yet Allah knows me far beyond everything.
alhamdulilah ala kulli hal, for everything that happens, for making me realise that everything that happen must have a reason. and for that, I thankful.

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