be careful with the heart

bismillah

alhamdulillah ala kulli hal, for everything that happens, sollu ala nabi muhammad . alhamdulilah

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so, be careful with the heart is the title of today's sharing. I am suuuper excited waiting for this sharing actually, because it kind of turn out to be at the right time for me. 

someone did asked me, ''wei, how about if someone that you like, like you back?'' and wallahi I am speechless. and can't even answer her question. even it is kind  obviously like, "of course I am happy" or "oh Allah i will be really glad" and etc.

but, I can't be that happy or that excited if I know , I guess. 

thinking back about it, when I like someone, it just I like . and I forget to think about the next step. and for me, if i am putting myself in that kind of situation, when that someone that you like, happens to like you back, I am honestly can do nothing. 

I am just not in that phase to ready of anything and to be honest, I am that kind of scare of marriage . really scared. and to think it back, wallahi, that is why Allah don't really give me to meet someone who really like me just because He knows that I am not ready for that things at all. 

and for what I am doing rn is, to keep on focus on what I am doing. like, keep on focusing my study, my family, my target, eternal happiness inshaAllah. for me, it is enough to be just like this, to be in my own circle and avoid for making it bigger , because for me, to make people sees what I am is, I just can't bare to face. so, by keeps my circle small and just nice for me, I am all good. 

and from the sharing, it said that, it is really importance to build our love to Allah and to our beloved prophet, Nabi Muhammad. 

and some of the way to build those love to Allah is by reciting Quran and try to read the translation after recite Quran. and find this out, a quote maybe, 

if you wants to talk to Allah, you pray. and if you wants Allah talk to you, you read Quran. 

and it is true. really true. :')

and the second one is, keep on do dzikir to Allah anytime, everywhere. it will life up our heart by keep on remembering Him. and also keep on salawat to Nabi Muhammad and may we get his syafaat in akhirat soon. aminn . 

and for those who puts Allah in their heart, wallahi, that heart will always in peace. whenever I fell like there is a  hole that I don't know what to fell it up. until I realise that, that hole only can be full if I keep on remembering Him, Allah, and by that time, wallahi, it is peace that I will find.

and someone did said this to me, it is okay to be like this, as long as you know what you did. and keep on istiqomah doing what you want, but keep on having your own pace, not anyone, but it is your own pace. and even if you fall, stand up again, and seek forgiveness to Him, Allah loves you. like, He really loves you. 

yes, He loves me. He loves us. 

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