cukup

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"ajari diri untuk sentiasa berasa cukup dengan segalanya."

"teach yourself to always feel enough with everything that you have."

I learn that , this  sentence is actually really good. it teach me, (at least) to feel enough with everything that happen , that I own, that I have. whenever I thought that 'why', that sentence really calm me down. it make me to always remember to stay low-key what ever it is. 

because, to be honest, 

there is nothing that I own. it is all Allah's. 

I am just a borrower who borrow everything that Allah's. and for me to think to have more, is really unpolite to the giver that is sooo much that I have borrow. 

acceptance is also the things that I keep on trying to keep in myself. to accept everything that happen, there is a reason behind it. and we have to accept it no matter what. 

husnuzon to Him. and He will never let you down. if I keep on thinking about all those things, it will really disturb my whole day and definitely no a very good thing. i got giga things to think and to do instead of thinking on something that not really sure what it is all about. 

it is just me who overthinking as always and rn I am trying to not soo much on think and Im going to be someone who limits on my way of thinking for the better me. this is also the way for me to keep my distance in a good way. for me to not so hurt myself easily and try on to not soo open with others.

all this thing that happens is all my fault . the fault when I low on my circle and my guard until it hurts me again. this is totally something that I can't figure out when it comes. 

and for me to counter it back, it realllly takes time. I am sorry dearself, for let the guards down and at the end, i am the one who hurts. 

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doakan baik baik. semoga segalanya baik baik saja.