the bright side

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alhamdulillah ala kulli hal . 

i realize that lately I really got time to write in this blog. well, not that really write, type actually haha. 

and of course, for me to write this much , everything is from Him, Allah, who lend me this ilham and idea , and give His permission for me to pour it into this blog. 

for all this time, wallahi , many thing happens in the blink of eyes. like, sometimes I can't even realize that how fast times already pass. and for us right now, currently in the busiest month for sure, in order to chase the dateline on sending those course work, presentation and so on. wallahi, it is  sooooo exhausted. but alhamdulilah, because, the bright part  that I can see from all this things is, this things keep myself busy. like, I got lot of things to think more than thinking about something that I really don't want to think. 

i admit, that lately, there's something that keeps on bothering my mind. those thing that actually kinda can effect me , like my mind. I just wanna to escape from those things and I really hope that I can really move on from that issues. and me being busy like this is kinda good because I finally can make space for my brain and mind to think about those giga things that I should think about. 

being me, who can pour all those thought that keeps on playing in my mind is kind of make ease for me, because, if you keeps all those things in your mind, when the time comes, it will blow off like that. and it gonna hurts you for sure. been that, done that. 

eventho I have this trust issues problem with people around, I still can write in this blog because, there's not that much of people who knows about this blog. as me only keep it in my circle too. I just like seeing all those thought in this blog and it sometimes, no,  alwaysss can be a really good adviser for me whenever I got into some  situation that I can't handle well. so, alhamdulilah. 

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I used to feel really scared if one day, people will leave me alone. even sometimes I rather choose to be alone than being with others. but, for those who really have a special place in my heart, being left by those people is nightmare. but then, when I heard Ustaz Hanan Attaki's talks, says that, if you keeps on putting your hopes on people, you will be weak. so he said to put hope at the only one who never let you down, which is Allah. and on that time, you will become strong. 

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someone had said, "it is enough for you to keep on positive yourself and enough to encourage yourself to be a better version of yourself. "

rather focusing on the bad side, how about keeps highlight the good side and that is better for you to be more positive in order to keep on doing a good things. 

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knowing that there's someone who said, 'i know you well ' kind of amaze me, because for me to know myself kinda difficult for me to done that . 

anyhow, just be yourself and be better in every step that you make. 

May Allah ease everything for all of us. 

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roger and out