2021 Recap

Hai guys. I'm writing this time when I on my way to go to KLIA. Yes, again, I'm going to fly again but this time,  I'm going to Bumi Kenyalang. 

To be honest, there's a lot of things that happened and right before new year, I need to leave my family again. When I thought that I will never leave again, and yet Allah's plans beautifully for me already.  And yes, alhamdulillah ala kulli hal. I'm thankful for this rezki that Allah grant me. 

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On January,  I was still in Dibawah Bayu because of covid and still struggling to finish my study as I was in last semester that time. Juggling with my fyp, and all. Until May. Alhamdulillah.  

Going back for good for Eid and stayed at home after that. 

(Along this time, I'm busy preparing the interview and fill all the forms needed.)

Doing a part-time job as private tutor for my cousins and doing other side jobs. Until, when gov announced that schools were going to reopen back and yup, I found a new job. As you all might know or might not know, I worked as a cashier.  Alhamdulillah. I learned a lot. 

And when the results came out.

Numerous times I told my self, no matter what the result is, say Alhamdulillah first.  And that was what I did. 

I thanked Allah for giving me this rezki, I got a job at this early age. For giving me a chance to get a job, and have money to give to my parents, families. Alhamdulillah ala kulli hal. 

But of course,  it will be lied if I said that I didn't cried.  I cried but not entirely because of the result, but I felt like reality really slaps you when I realised that, I'm going to work now. Not study, but work. I'll have another responsibility to carry. It's a good things though. 

Along time I spend at home, I full myself with books and I read a lot too. And I learned about what you should put in your heart.  What actually things that you should put in your hands. And by that, I understand that you only can control what 'you' can control. 

By that, I know, there's a still a lot of things that I need to learn.  The art of letting God. The moment when you let everything in Allah's. Let Him.

Maybe that's the part that I lacks. And the part that I need to improve more. Right after I received the result,  I kept on saying that, "Na, you asked Allah to give you the best result for you. And Allah gave what He know best for you. So, don't be sad. He's near. 

And remembered when He said, verily, with the hardship there's relief. The relief came with the hardship. As what AidaAzlin said in her TuesdayLoveLetter, about finding the relief that came with the hardship. It may be hard, but trust Allah. Always always husnudzon with Allah. 

There's reason for everything that happened. 

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And for next year, I kept asking people around me to pray for me. For me to have faith in Allah, may Allah ease everything for me, for my safety. Because I know, and I believe Allah will listen to every du'a . He is All Hearing. 

So everyone who read this, pray for me. May Allah bless you. 

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Fin .