I went to a Dentist

Bismillah

In the name of Allah, the most Gracious and the most Merciful,

and hello everyone.

not too late I guess to wish "Happy New Year" for this 2020 years. Alhamdulilah ala kulli hal for the chances that had been given to live and to be better. so, Alhamdulilah. today Im just done cleaning up the home because everyone was gone. Ibu, Adik and Aliya went to school, and Ayah also do some works and me all alone at home trying to do something rather than anything. so yeah, got some free time to write and here I am, writing this entry for the first time for this very new year. 

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alright, so, long short story, a few weeks ago, I went to the gov clinic to do a check up for my tooth. and it turns out , the dentist said that I need a dental cavity treatment. at first, I was kind of sad because, for the past 8 years, the whole high school history, there was no problem with my tooth and I thought that maybe because after the high school, my tooth had been neglected by me and I cause me this. so, mental notes for me , please take care of you tooth ladyy . so, I had my appointment arranged and today is the day for me to do the treatment. 

at first, I asked my Ibu, " did it hurts ?'' and Ibu said, "No la, the treatment was just fine. dont worry la" and Ibu is the one and the only person that I asked because I'm scared to hear other people opinion about that. so yeah, no matter what, believe in our mum. haha

so, I woke up to see off my whole family going to school and work, after that I got myself ready to go because the appointment was on 0900 and I leave home on 0845. *notes, the clinic was so near with my home so worry not. ^^

holding on what Ibu said, I bravely went into the room and great the doctor with a smile. this is when the climax . haha. it was sooo nerve-wreaking. I hold the chair holder tightly and I almost felt like I wanna to run awayyy . and thank god I close my eyes . hahaha. when the treatment was on going, I told myself, 'see, if only you took care of your tooth nicely, they wont be hurt like this .' literally I just scold myself in my head hahaha

and it was my fault, so again mental notes, I need to face it and bare with it. the dentist just doing her job to fix my tooth and all I need to do was brave myself and hold on. its going to end soon. and it really was. 

I think the treatment only took around 30 minutes to be done and I off to go home. alhamdulilah. 

so the feeling was, I am glad , alhamdulilah, because I get out of my comfort zone and I face my problem nicely. and I didnt cry haha. but almost. haha. but no, there was no tear at all. Im all good. so yeah, do take care of your tooth nicely after this. controls what you eats, make sure to brush your tooth after that and before sleep too. be nice. also to yourself. and, sorry self for not taking care of you as much as I should. 

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Looking at the past, yesterday kind of not really my day because I felt so miserable and I cried a lot. maybe it because of my unstable emotions and usually come ups and downs. but Alhamdulilah, this morning, seeing Ibu's face and hearing her voice, I felt more content and more lively. alhamdulilah. 

she will always be my source of energy. alhamdulilah. 

so, I guess, this is the starting of 2020 life inshaAllah for the better more in the future. 

p/s; learn lesson from this tooth issues, I guess, I wanna to self love more this year. taking care of myself and love myself more. be good, be kind to everyone and most importance to myself. 

so by that, adios everyonee .^^