homesickness

Bismillah.

Its been a while, right ? For me writing all this things in this blog. I still write, you know. it just the matter of where I write and where I posted it. 

alhamdulilah alla kulli hal. 

if you read my last post, I do mention about the practicum things and all, and alhamdulilah, I finally done it. (well, even it almost months passed =,=) but still, alhamdulilah. good job myself for being soo strong facing those days. heee

and alhamdulilah too because I finally done art class that I took for a month. ohh, dont asked about my art, it was horrible. like, I dont really fancy on arts. I do love to see all those arts , but, to do it by myself, Ill better choose no. because, being myself who had too much insecure about all things that relate to myself is a bigg no. I cant disappointed myself even more. to make it short, I had a worst art ever . (T_T)

but, its okay. been there done that. alhamdulilah dear self and good job for not giving up even for hundreds of time I kept on repeating that "I wanna give up alreadyyyy !!" haha

so, alhamdulilah. :)

and yes, back to the reasons of why I wrote today is, I missed my family. 

yeah, that's it. I currently feeling homesick like I just want to pack all my stuff and take the plane and fly to my hometown. 

but yes,

I can't do that because this is a reality that I need to face up. so yeah, alhamdulilah.

I read this one quoted from my favorite author, Panji Ramdana, he says, 

"Rindu itu tercipta, agar jarak menjadi terasa ada."

it is not my first time feeling all this homesickness and all, it is just by time, I will feel this. it just, the feeling when your heart feels want to be at where they belong at. 

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It happen when I started scrolling my facebook. and I stalked my Ibu's page and all the past photos that she posted, like literally it was me who updated all those things. if you asked about my facebook, naa, I dont really updated pictures much in it bacause all those trust issues thingy, but yeah, updating it at Ibu's dont cause too much because it is Ibu's.  and by seeing all those picture literally makes me kind of miss every single time. 

I kept thinking that, yeah, by that time, I do had stuff to settle down, homework to make it done, all those issues that come while you were in high school and all. and yeah, yet until now, it still does. like, we still facing all those issues ever since we live. and yeah, the only thing that change was, the issues itself. like, it may change on other perspectives and people around and all. 

and it does teach me to live better alhamdulillah. seeing how actually people change surely makes me thinks much about my own self. wow, you change huh? haha

and this is what life are. 

it change people, and it change you too. either better or not, because, the choices is already in our hand. 

live well or live hell ? I choose. -Rooftop rant, Hlovate

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I also learn to not take things for granted anymore. being away from family really shapes me well. on how I should reacted when Im being away from my beloved ones and yeah, I wanna be better . appreciate every single one who came into my life. because we live only once and I dont really want to regret anything for not being concern enough about people who I love most right ?

yeah right.

life is too short be be wasted. and this is sooo truee. 

so, if I miss them, Ill call them. video call anything as long I can hear them out. 

I wanna to check them out, knowing what they do, and all their activities. and yeah, it do sounds clingy, but there's no sins in doing that with your own families right >_<

do it, while there's still time. 

by that,

adios *hands up