I am sad

because ibu is sad.

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one day, I saw ibu's whatsapp. actually, mama rarely put something in her whatsapps's status. I so I got curious when I saw it. and I asked her immediately.

and she said, "it's along'' .

I'm immediately understand what she wants to say.

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she sad. and it breaks my heart. I know, and I realise ever since years ago, she loves along very much. she puts along on first than others. even it is not that obvious because along never take advantage on that. I know that. I already know.

I always envy along more than other. no one envy along more that I did. but I still respect him as he is my along. but when turns to be like this, I am sad too.

he is going to work that farr beyond our expectation. we never thought that he will go far away like that. we only thought we will only separate for a fer month. never cross our mind that he will go that far. and for me , I am totally can relate what along feels right now. but I know,he never shows that feeling in front of us. he keeps inside.

for me, being away from Ibu and Ayah is worse. and it is even worse if you can't go back home because of work.

and for along, he will be far away from as for eight month plus minus. and I can't even imagine that. for me, thinking that I won't see ibu ayah for 5 months scared me to death. but I tried, my very hard to not let this feeling effect me. Let Allah protect them. Let Him.

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tinta buat akhi 21.2.19

dia tetap yang pertama
penyeri hidup ibu dan ayah
bahagiakan ibu ayah untuk 2 tahun.
sebelum datangnya kami yang lain.
wajar untuk ibu ayah limpahkan kasih dan sayang buatnya.
kerna dia berhak.

dia yang pertama.
semoga Allah sentiasa melindungimu ya akhi.
semoga sentiasa dalam rahmatNya.
semoga nanti pulang jua kepangkuan mama abahmu.
yakinlah dengan pasti, bahwa doa mama tetap utuh buatmu.
kasih abah tetap ada untukmu.

salam kepergian dan pastinya pulangmu nanti akan sentiasa dinanti.

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hands up.