Sins
Bismillah
In the name of Allah, the most Gracious and the most Merciful,
first of all, Alhamdullilah for this new year, 2019, for the chances that Allah give to me, to you , to all of us, to keep on breathing with the same air in a new year. the new phase as our age keeps on increase. Alhamdulilah.
rn, currently 1.45 in the early morning, I'm writing this entry. actually I had planned to write this part at 10 pm like that, but some how, something happens that need my attention and some works to be done and here I am, writing this part in this early morning. actually I had some work to be done, but yea, I just stop for a while to pour what it is in my head.
this year for me, seems to be one of the busiest phase in my collage life. full of works, responsibility and all. many things that need to be done, and as time really left me behind. but one thing that always in my mind is, He won't , never and will not burden a soul beyond their ability. so yeah, Allah will help me, and may He ease everything for me. InshaAllah.
I come out with this kind of mindset. when I'm facing some trouble or problems, I used to think that it's maybe because Allah loves me, that's why He tests me. but how about, all those hardships that come over to me, is because of my past sins ? what if Allah wants me to repent for my past sins ? so that I will keep on remembering that I am a sinner who will never escape from any sins.
so for today, I think the hardest things that I need to do this time is to refrain myself from not getting angry when something happens not according or meet my interest. yes, I do have that kind of hard to accept things when it really comes to things that I dislike. yea, I guess, that is one of my bad side. so yea, really need to work harder for that attitude. wish me. aminn.
many things happen to me for the past year, being a collage students is not like what is in the tv, it just me doing my thing and all. I never thought that my life can turn out to like this but yea, it is Allah's. He knows. everything. and yes, He won't allowed if this is not my life way. so yea, Alhamdulillah ala kulli hal.
everything that happens is already perfect it His way. because the planner is Allah, and He is Al-Kareem after all.
so , may Allah bless. >_<
I read Aida Azlin's TuesdayLoveLetter and saw her latest vlogs in Facebook. she talked about gentleness that Allah and Rasullulah actually want us to apply in our daily life. I realise that, I can be such a harsh went something that clash with my thought and the feeling on wanted to deliver my thought to everyone make me realise on how actually I did that. did I patiently deliver that message or I just throw all of that in a bad way ? I just realise that. and one phase in her blog that struck my heart was " It taught me that perhaps by being gentle, you can soften the hardest heart. But more importantly, it taught me that everyone deserve to be spoken and treated with respect and with gentleness, because at the end of the day, no matter who he or she is, no matter what he or she is, the are Allah's. '
yes, those words really make me felt like something slapped my face clearly.
you know what, I always prayed to Allah, to grant me patient. and you know something that I don't realise before this, Allah wants to give me patients through all this tests. and I just realise that today , Ma Shaa Allah.
when ever I felt angry, I always tell Ibu. every. single. thing. and you know what was the first thing I said to me after she heard all those story, she said, "sabar", yess, that so little one word that she always repeatedly told me when ever I got myself on fire. sabr.
because she knows, by time I realise my mistake, I will surely regret on what I did. it just me. and I am the one will apologise first even if the mistake was not mine. why ? because the guilty that wonder in my heart and mind. and I used to make myself a law, 'if I got myself angry, I will spend someone who near me a food or anything that she or he wants.'
so, for this year, I really really want to try hard, no, harder to keep silence when ever I got myself angry.
so for today, I think the hardest things that I need to do this time is to refrain myself from not getting angry when something happens not according or meet my interest. yes, I do have that kind of hard to accept things when it really comes to things that I dislike. yea, I guess, that is one of my bad side. so yea, really need to work harder for that attitude. wish me. aminn.
many things happen to me for the past year, being a collage students is not like what is in the tv, it just me doing my thing and all. I never thought that my life can turn out to like this but yea, it is Allah's. He knows. everything. and yes, He won't allowed if this is not my life way. so yea, Alhamdulillah ala kulli hal.
everything that happens is already perfect it His way. because the planner is Allah, and He is Al-Kareem after all.
so , may Allah bless. >_<
I read Aida Azlin's TuesdayLoveLetter and saw her latest vlogs in Facebook. she talked about gentleness that Allah and Rasullulah actually want us to apply in our daily life. I realise that, I can be such a harsh went something that clash with my thought and the feeling on wanted to deliver my thought to everyone make me realise on how actually I did that. did I patiently deliver that message or I just throw all of that in a bad way ? I just realise that. and one phase in her blog that struck my heart was " It taught me that perhaps by being gentle, you can soften the hardest heart. But more importantly, it taught me that everyone deserve to be spoken and treated with respect and with gentleness, because at the end of the day, no matter who he or she is, no matter what he or she is, the are Allah's. '
yes, those words really make me felt like something slapped my face clearly.
you know what, I always prayed to Allah, to grant me patient. and you know something that I don't realise before this, Allah wants to give me patients through all this tests. and I just realise that today , Ma Shaa Allah.
when ever I felt angry, I always tell Ibu. every. single. thing. and you know what was the first thing I said to me after she heard all those story, she said, "sabar", yess, that so little one word that she always repeatedly told me when ever I got myself on fire. sabr.
because she knows, by time I realise my mistake, I will surely regret on what I did. it just me. and I am the one will apologise first even if the mistake was not mine. why ? because the guilty that wonder in my heart and mind. and I used to make myself a law, 'if I got myself angry, I will spend someone who near me a food or anything that she or he wants.'
so, for this year, I really really want to try hard, no, harder to keep silence when ever I got myself angry.
oh Allah, I thanked you for open my eyes and my heart for this and I thankful for lending me all those beautiful souls beside me. bless them Allah, bless them :)
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