day -2
Human needs answer in every single things in their life. each one of it.
technically, when someone needs answer, they will work for it.
but, human do have second habits which is lazy,
even how badly they want for the answer, but they are too lazy to find it.
so, they will choose something that do not need any energy to used which is assume.
assume, we assumed because we are too lazy to find the answer. and even the answer is in front of our eyes, we choose to close our eyes just because the answer don't meet our expectation.
***
I usually don't really care about other people around because I tend to mind my own tools. why on earth people care about other people tools. like thinking about what I should wear for tomorrow is already a big deal.
I always and always said to myself to stay low-key. don't do anything that makes people talk about you, don't do weird things, don't do anything that might attract other people attention and all.
rn, I'm trying my best to stay where I am. to make sure that I don't mend other people issues and I don't do any things that will bring bad spots to others.
I'm struggling to live well rn.
people know nothing about me. If they know, they won't say anything that will hurt me. honestly, today is a bittersweet day for me. sweet because it is already October, and bitter because of something that happens in class today.
aghh, I really really wish to hide myself away right now. getting away from this place and all.
there is a reason why Allah put me on where I am right now, but just for today, allowed me to escape for a while.
it's been a while for me to feel this way.
the feeling about 'not belong here' feels so so real by time.
I just want a normal thing. just a normal life that any other people would have. I bet even students at overseas don't really feel what I feels right now.
the feeling when you don't belong here, even in your own country.
***
all the eyes looking, that eyes that look at me, those eyes that full of hated , I hate it.
technically, when someone needs answer, they will work for it.
but, human do have second habits which is lazy,
even how badly they want for the answer, but they are too lazy to find it.
so, they will choose something that do not need any energy to used which is assume.
assume, we assumed because we are too lazy to find the answer. and even the answer is in front of our eyes, we choose to close our eyes just because the answer don't meet our expectation.
***
I usually don't really care about other people around because I tend to mind my own tools. why on earth people care about other people tools. like thinking about what I should wear for tomorrow is already a big deal.
I always and always said to myself to stay low-key. don't do anything that makes people talk about you, don't do weird things, don't do anything that might attract other people attention and all.
rn, I'm trying my best to stay where I am. to make sure that I don't mend other people issues and I don't do any things that will bring bad spots to others.
I'm struggling to live well rn.
people know nothing about me. If they know, they won't say anything that will hurt me. honestly, today is a bittersweet day for me. sweet because it is already October, and bitter because of something that happens in class today.
aghh, I really really wish to hide myself away right now. getting away from this place and all.
there is a reason why Allah put me on where I am right now, but just for today, allowed me to escape for a while.
it's been a while for me to feel this way.
the feeling about 'not belong here' feels so so real by time.
I just want a normal thing. just a normal life that any other people would have. I bet even students at overseas don't really feel what I feels right now.
the feeling when you don't belong here, even in your own country.
***
all the eyes looking, that eyes that look at me, those eyes that full of hated , I hate it.
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