open but stay low-key

having a good friends is good. as good as what we can be. I used to be so so hard to make new friend because of my trust issues thingy. things sometimes getting harder than I ever thought . 

that was me. 

but for this year, I become more sensible and can get along well with others and I feel like my trust issues somehow getting lower by time. alhamdulilah. 

for me to be this rarely open with others can be one of my great achievement. I bet I can say that. :) being able to talk, share, have a good talk with others really help me a lot to mingle with other people. but still, I should't let my guard down. I must stay on caution about the surrounding so then I won't repeat the same mistake ever again. 

it is actually good to have a new friends to talk to while keep on others people around just to make sure that you still can helps other who in need. and yes, Allah won't do something that will not give any goodness to us. have faith. 

Allah still wants to used me in other way that I might be not know what it is, but soon, InshaAllah, I will know. this is all my random thought that I can develop while having many things in my mind. it is kind of one of the way for me to replace back everything in mind and all. so that, I can be in peace. and thank Allah for giving me this path that I can pour everything nicely. 

rn I am currently waiting at the airport for my next flight. I am going home. for almost a month and a week, being far far away from family is not something that so so good for me. for someone who can be said so clingy with family is. I just hope that for this two weeks holiday, I can used this time wisely and create some good memories with the loved one. being with them, is one of the way to ease my heart. 

like, heart only can be in peace when it is at the right place. 

and may Allah bless all of you too.