Its been a while.

after a long hiatus so far, I guess. so,

Bismillah

In the name of Allah, the most Gracious and the most Merciful,

for almost four months and surely many thing happened. and being me, I really have a lot of things that I want to ponder. being too overthink on something sometimes can be really good and sometimes not really. knowing that everything that happened , must have a reason behind it, and surely as we planned, Allah also planned and He is the best of Planner after all. 

actually, there's a lott of thing that I want to share and tell about. 

on how actually reality really makes me think other wise and being so so thinkable while everything seems so hard to do, yet it can be really easy at the moment you think that Allah surely will help you no matter what. 

you know, on December 2019, when the Takwim already out, I'm done my 'the whole year planning on 2020'. like, I already jot down on what will happen on this and that. but, it is what people do rite? if you fail to plan, you plan to fail. so, we need a plan just to make sure everything will just right on track. so yup, we plan. while on the things that we don't see, Allah also already make a plan for the whole things too. 

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at the end of February, we actually have a mid term holiday . it just a week holiday. and I didn't plan to come back home. because, i felt like I just come back from home already when the class started. so, those homesick feeling aren't that strong. and things became different when I saw this one advertise about youth leadership camp. and I was like, it was interesting. when I saw the venue, it near my friend places, Y, and I thought I wanna asked Y about it. and surprisingly, Y also planned to join the camp. so I made another plan. as I'm going to that camp, why not I go back home. it just like kills two birds with one stone. and I did it. we were going to that camp and decided to go back home after the camp. together. and trust me, the experience was way beyond my expectation. it was fun. I got to meet many new faces, new knowledge. I'm blessed with all those things. and the most importance part was, I didn't told my family about my plan. it just like, I wanna to surprise them. and the rest was history. 

even it only five days spending times with my family, it felt like all the time was filled with blessed and all. and when the time comes to go back to my place, and I remembered vividly what Ibu said to me, "is all the things that you wanna to eat already fulfilled?" and I was like, 'Ibu, I don't really demand on anything to be eat or else. as long as those food were cooked by Ibu, then, it was all I need.'  this time, I had a mix feeling again. because, after this, I won't be meeting them again, until eid because, as what we planned, our big families decided to come to Sabah and having the school holiday after the third eid. so Ibu said to me, that I don't need to come back for eid as they were coming to my place on the third eid. it will be troublesome for me and family as they need to pick me up at the airport a day of eid and later need to fly back. so yeah. that was what had already planned. 

and we break our path again in order to fulfill my responsibility as a student. 

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did I said in the first paragraph right, that , as we planned, Allah also planned and He is the best of Planner, right ? and things happened way beyond my expectation. 

cont. on the next post >_<

p/s : this post was actually to say 'hi' after a long hiatus. so, it wont hurt a bit ey if I make this hanging story for this time being ? 

as for that, adios. 

may peace be upon you.