it is okay.
"it is not about forcing yourself to be happy, but it is about not letting your sadness to win. "
this very soothing words that Teme give is totally something that I need most right now. it is just happen something in my mind and I got a dream that I am so so afraid to tell to others because I heard that, we can't easily tell people about what we dream about. because it can be 'mainan syaitan' which is it's really really not a good things to discuss.
as always, I tend to overthink something that near to me. and I already know that it sucks. like really really sucks. my head hurts like hell when ever I'm forcing myself to cry a lot . out loud. just to release all my pains. it sucks in my mind like hell until I don't know what I need to do. I can't just tell people about my problem because they themselves also have their own shits to face on. so yeah, it is typically me who won't easily tell out loud.
I called Ibu just now. just wanted to hear her voice. she sounds sleepy already. like she always sleep early because she got to go to school tomorrow. always be the first one who wake up. I just don't know, listening to her voice makes me wanted to hug her too much. I really really miss her . damn, it really hurts like hell.
if only I can wish, I wish to have a Doreamon's door that can go to anywhere that we want. and what I wish to go is obviously to back home. the feeling on wanting to hug Ibu so so much really makes me think until that much.
only for today, allowed me to feel this hard. this sadness, I can't escape like always, I can't have a late ride alone, I can't just go away for awhile to get an ice cream to heal this wound. I just can't anymore.
and all I can do right now is write. in this very very sad blog. I know nothing about those who read my blog. but as you can conclude, this blog is the only way for me to pour all this out. with this bless of writing. I thanked Allah for giving me this ability to write in this blog, that I can transfer my feeling to words, even it is not a fully cure, at least, one percent can be done.
right now, I can't let this sadness to control my mind. I just want to say that I am sad. I am sick. I want to pour all this sickness, sadness to this blog. I need to hang in there. because, all of this is temporary. it won't last. it is only temporary. so yeah, I will hang in as much as I can.
as this dunya is also temporary, so do this sadness, this problems. it is okay to feel sad sometimes. it is okay. I always tell others that it is okay to feel this way, so yeah, right now, I'm telling myself that it is okay to feel this way. you did great already. you had done crying out loud. even it seem so like a baby who are crying for her mommy, so do I. it is okay to cry. even when you cry my face looks like really ugly, it is okay.
it is okay to cry. it is okay to feel sad.
it is just okay.
-TemeAbdullah
this very soothing words that Teme give is totally something that I need most right now. it is just happen something in my mind and I got a dream that I am so so afraid to tell to others because I heard that, we can't easily tell people about what we dream about. because it can be 'mainan syaitan' which is it's really really not a good things to discuss.
as always, I tend to overthink something that near to me. and I already know that it sucks. like really really sucks. my head hurts like hell when ever I'm forcing myself to cry a lot . out loud. just to release all my pains. it sucks in my mind like hell until I don't know what I need to do. I can't just tell people about my problem because they themselves also have their own shits to face on. so yeah, it is typically me who won't easily tell out loud.
I called Ibu just now. just wanted to hear her voice. she sounds sleepy already. like she always sleep early because she got to go to school tomorrow. always be the first one who wake up. I just don't know, listening to her voice makes me wanted to hug her too much. I really really miss her . damn, it really hurts like hell.
if only I can wish, I wish to have a Doreamon's door that can go to anywhere that we want. and what I wish to go is obviously to back home. the feeling on wanting to hug Ibu so so much really makes me think until that much.
only for today, allowed me to feel this hard. this sadness, I can't escape like always, I can't have a late ride alone, I can't just go away for awhile to get an ice cream to heal this wound. I just can't anymore.
and all I can do right now is write. in this very very sad blog. I know nothing about those who read my blog. but as you can conclude, this blog is the only way for me to pour all this out. with this bless of writing. I thanked Allah for giving me this ability to write in this blog, that I can transfer my feeling to words, even it is not a fully cure, at least, one percent can be done.
right now, I can't let this sadness to control my mind. I just want to say that I am sad. I am sick. I want to pour all this sickness, sadness to this blog. I need to hang in there. because, all of this is temporary. it won't last. it is only temporary. so yeah, I will hang in as much as I can.
as this dunya is also temporary, so do this sadness, this problems. it is okay to feel sad sometimes. it is okay. I always tell others that it is okay to feel this way, so yeah, right now, I'm telling myself that it is okay to feel this way. you did great already. you had done crying out loud. even it seem so like a baby who are crying for her mommy, so do I. it is okay to cry. even when you cry my face looks like really ugly, it is okay.
it is okay to cry. it is okay to feel sad.
it is just okay.
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